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Time:07:29 pm
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So I figured I should say something. I don't know why. I guess I don't want anyone to worry about me or anything. So. I'm leaving, ok? I don't think there's any point in being at Hogwarts anymore. There are things I should be doing, and it's about time I did them.

I guess this is bye, then.
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Time:02:08 am
Current Mood:coldcold
Hey. Sorry I haven't been around much, I guess. I just haven't really felt like using these things. I don't really have anything to say. I don't know why I'm writing in this, honestly. I guess I just feel like I should, like maybe I owe it to someone to write things here. I don't know who. Maybe me. I don't really know if I'm going to stick around for the rest of this year. It seems pointless. But I don't really know where I'd go, and I don't know what good I could do.

I'm sorry that I didn't do more with the DA last year. I really am. I'm not ready, and I'm sorry for that too.

Hermione, when you get the chance, can we talk?
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Time:01:21 pm
Current Mood:numbnumb
Hi.

I'd rather just be left alone.
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Time:02:44 pm
Current Mood:awake
Well, I got an owl from Dumbledore a few days ago. Looks like I get to leave here on Sunday, which'll be nice. Weird, though. I've never liked it here, but I can't really imagine not being here again. Anyway, I think I'm just going to stay with Remus and Sirius, and that'll be brilliant.

I wonder if the Dursleys will throw a party.
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Time:06:52 pm
Current Mood:awake
I'm back at the Dursleys now. I don't really know what to say, but I guess I figured I should say something, so. Sorry to everyone who's hurt or who lost someone. And I guess maybe I let you guys down this year, and maybe I should have done more with the DA and if I had maybe things would have gone better, maybe some of you wouldn't have gotten so hurt and maybe Anthony would still be around. I can't believe they came to Hogwarts. It's supposed to be safe here. Always. I guess I always assumed that no matter what, they couldn't come here, but then I should have known better. With Quirrel and Crouch and other people, I guess I should have known that they could get into Hogwarts. But now I reckon even more people won't be coming back next year, and I guess I can't really blame them. I know Dumbledore will make things safe, I'm not worried about that. I trust him. And anyway, I'd want to stand and fight no matter what. Hogwarts is my home. I guess it's really the only home I've ever had and I'm not going to stand around and let people come in and destroy it, so.

I guess I just wanted to say that I'll be here no matter what.
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Time:11:57 pm
Current Mood:worriedworried
Everyone's going to think I'm crazy for saying this but I don't care. There are Death Eaters coming to Hogwarts, I don't know when but soon and I told Dumbledore but he won't listen, he said I'm wrong but I'm not.

I'm not making this up. We've got to do something, we can't just sit here and wait for them. Some of you have to believe me.
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Time:11:37 am
Exams weren't too bad, I guess. I think I did alright on DADA, anyway. I'm not really sure what I'll do this afternoon, when everyone's taking their history exams. Maybe I'll go visit Hagrid. I feel like I haven't spent much time with him this year, but I guess I just got kind of distracted or something.

I know we've been here ages, but I'm not really ready to leave yet. I mean, I guess I never am. But I don't guess that really matters.
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Time:04:08 am
Things have been sort of quiet lately, without Mr. Weasley around. I can't believe they're holding him on such a stupid charge when the Minister's a murderer. Oh wait I guess I can. At least Fred's back for a bit. Lately I feel like I've just been waiting for something to happen and I hate it. But Pettigrew's still out there somewhere and so is Voldemort and the Ministry pretty clearly doesn't give a damn and it just seems like things have been almost too quiet lately and I hate that I even think that. But I do. and some people seem happier, which is good, and I'm glad, I just wish I had reason to be happier. But I don't want to be an obligation. And it's stupid that I care about it anyway, so I guess I shouldn't. I don't want apologies anyway.
Exams are coming up but I can't really be bothered to care. It'll just be the same thing again. Exams and then the Dursleys for 3 months.
It's half four in the morning but I'm not tired enough to sleep.
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Time:08:29 pm
Current Mood:blankblank
So. I don't really know what I'm gonna say here. I probably shouldn't be updating. I guess.. I just.. I'm really starting to think there's something wrong with me. I don't know. I know everyone's stressed because of the end of term coming up and all but it's something other than that, really. I haven't started revising or anything and I know Hermione'll be mad at me, she's in the library all the time now, it seems. But I don't really care, I guess. I don't really see the point. It's not like I have much choice about what I'm gonna do and even if I did, I don't want to have to think about that now. I just want to play Quidditch and go on Hogsmeade weekends and spend time with my family. I mean. I pretty much see them as my family now. Well. I feel like, no matter what happens, Remus will always be there and I've never really had anyone like that except for maybe Hagrid so it's nice. And it's stupid of me to be writing all of this here, but I guess I'm just tired of people asking me if I'm alright all the time. I guess I'm not. But I don't want people looking at me funny or trying to be my friend or something just because they think I've got problems. It seems like everyone's got problems anyway, so I don't see what's so special about mine. I'm really tired, though. I can't ever seem to get enough sleep and some people probably think it's for pretty stupid reasons, but it's not. It wouldn't be stupid if it was you, anyway. And I kind of don't want to look at myself now. I don't like myself much. No. Maybe that's not it. I broke a mirror yesterday. I haven't done that since. Well. I don't think I did it on purpose, but maybe I did. I don't think it will bring him back this time, though.

Ron and Hermione helped make dinner tonight, and that was pretty good. I think Molly was pretty proud, but I have a feeling it was mostly Hermione. She looked really pleased with it. I figured it was just because she's glad people are doing work instead of the house elves, but she didn't seem to want to talk about them much, for once. Maybe she's actually a bit upset that they're on strike and she can't knit things for them anymore or anything.

Anyway I guess that's it.
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Time:01:32 am
Current Mood:irritatedirritated
I said I'm fine. And I don't want to talk about it.
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